Post by Madeline on Mar 1, 2006 13:56:34 GMT -5
Last night I couldn't resist and I had to watch "Brokeback Mountain" again...And it made me think a lot...of all that Jack could have said to Ennis, in words, not just by touch or with just one look. All those things that happened or should have happened between them, I tried to describe in words, using a imaginary letter destinated to Ennis Del Mar.
Sorry for my bad English and for my grammar mistakes...
Here it goes:
"...I am a wild wind breeze... I am the warm morning light that tickles so gently your long eyelashes to open your eyes when dawn brakes. I am a delicate ray of sunshine that caresses your tender cheeks; I am the dew from the blades of grass that kisses your ankles; I am a wild wind breeze that plays with your hair. I am a little and silent lower that begs for your caress, I am an isolated thought that makes you to startle when you are alone in the real world, lost in an everending dream...
I am a lost snowflake that tries to caress your face...God, I wish I knew how to melt down into your skin...this way I would be sure that I won't lose you...Maybe for just a second, you'll think I'm mad...Maybe it's true...I am mad, I'm mad about you, you're all I've dreamed of...Maybe life was too cruel to me, because you're so far away and I...I am searching for you desperately...All is against us, all makes the distance even bigger...people, life...even destiny, maybe. This is what I want to tell you: I am not afraid of anything! I am ready for making a commitment, if you are. I am what lays on the other side of your window...the distance...your remembrance can't find me, your voice can't call me because he doesn't know where I am, of the four horizons...Do you know how to listen? Do you hear the wind whispering at the window? Do you hear the birds that come and go over and over again bringing and carrying away spring? Do you know what nostalgia is? Sometimes, you look through the window without seeing anything...I am right there, over there...shapeless, a vicinity and a distance, hereabouts you...
I wish I could leave all this behind, I wish I could go somewhere far, as far as I can, to be able to forget all that is happening to me, to start a new life, to meet you there...not in here, in this mad world from which I can't escape. Now, I only have left is to keep living this monotonous life, which I had been doing for the past years, hoping that one day all is going to end and it will have another beginning, a chosen one, a beginning that would be only mine...
I am thinking how to get closer to your heart...I can't tell how could I possibly do that...What's missing...to get us together forever...maybe this is how it was meant to be, to be far...from one another...and to love through suffering...I need you...I want to fall asleep in your arms every night...so that the next morning you would be the one I wake up next to...I want you to be in my dreams, I want you to be my reason for living, I want you to be my EVERYTHING!
I want to see you, to kiss you, to be only yours, not only for one night, but for eternity...Night falls and a suave music is soothing my loneliness...What can I do? Nothing more than waiting for the moment when we meet again, the moment when I'd be the happiest man alive...I prayse God for that moment would come as soon as possible so that my suffering would stop...I need love...I need a true and real love...I am sick and tired of lies and disappointment. I want to live magic moments with you, dream-like moments, moments together, which I think I couldn't describein words...Love is all this! Love is being at a loss for words when nothing you say can compare to how you feel...
I love you with only one look...I love you with a kiss...I love you with a touch...I love you with my body...I'm not lying when I tell you that I love you, I'm not lying when I tell you that I miss your hugs, your tenderness, your love, all that you are. In a short period of time I learnt to love a wonderful soul, a soul that deserves something better than what I can give him.
Love is a sweet illusion that is born from the moonlight...the warmness of the earth and the tears of the clouds...It's a wild wind breeze, a laughter of leaves. A song played on and on...a certain path...that carries you into the deepest dreams. Each thought of mine for you...is arriving to it's destination and it'll leave behind a sun that will set down...And maybe you'll forget me, because the dream was evanescent...but all that I've said it's true and I've been loving you ceaselessly. Love is a multitude of qualities and defects embalmed in a body with irresistible shadows. Love can be EVERYTHING or NOTHING...The choice, my love, it is all yours!"
Thanks to all that have been kind and patient enough to read all of it... I am waiting for reviews, for your comments..
Sorry for my bad English and for my grammar mistakes...
Here it goes:
"...I am a wild wind breeze... I am the warm morning light that tickles so gently your long eyelashes to open your eyes when dawn brakes. I am a delicate ray of sunshine that caresses your tender cheeks; I am the dew from the blades of grass that kisses your ankles; I am a wild wind breeze that plays with your hair. I am a little and silent lower that begs for your caress, I am an isolated thought that makes you to startle when you are alone in the real world, lost in an everending dream...
I am a lost snowflake that tries to caress your face...God, I wish I knew how to melt down into your skin...this way I would be sure that I won't lose you...Maybe for just a second, you'll think I'm mad...Maybe it's true...I am mad, I'm mad about you, you're all I've dreamed of...Maybe life was too cruel to me, because you're so far away and I...I am searching for you desperately...All is against us, all makes the distance even bigger...people, life...even destiny, maybe. This is what I want to tell you: I am not afraid of anything! I am ready for making a commitment, if you are. I am what lays on the other side of your window...the distance...your remembrance can't find me, your voice can't call me because he doesn't know where I am, of the four horizons...Do you know how to listen? Do you hear the wind whispering at the window? Do you hear the birds that come and go over and over again bringing and carrying away spring? Do you know what nostalgia is? Sometimes, you look through the window without seeing anything...I am right there, over there...shapeless, a vicinity and a distance, hereabouts you...
I wish I could leave all this behind, I wish I could go somewhere far, as far as I can, to be able to forget all that is happening to me, to start a new life, to meet you there...not in here, in this mad world from which I can't escape. Now, I only have left is to keep living this monotonous life, which I had been doing for the past years, hoping that one day all is going to end and it will have another beginning, a chosen one, a beginning that would be only mine...
I am thinking how to get closer to your heart...I can't tell how could I possibly do that...What's missing...to get us together forever...maybe this is how it was meant to be, to be far...from one another...and to love through suffering...I need you...I want to fall asleep in your arms every night...so that the next morning you would be the one I wake up next to...I want you to be in my dreams, I want you to be my reason for living, I want you to be my EVERYTHING!
I want to see you, to kiss you, to be only yours, not only for one night, but for eternity...Night falls and a suave music is soothing my loneliness...What can I do? Nothing more than waiting for the moment when we meet again, the moment when I'd be the happiest man alive...I prayse God for that moment would come as soon as possible so that my suffering would stop...I need love...I need a true and real love...I am sick and tired of lies and disappointment. I want to live magic moments with you, dream-like moments, moments together, which I think I couldn't describein words...Love is all this! Love is being at a loss for words when nothing you say can compare to how you feel...
I love you with only one look...I love you with a kiss...I love you with a touch...I love you with my body...I'm not lying when I tell you that I love you, I'm not lying when I tell you that I miss your hugs, your tenderness, your love, all that you are. In a short period of time I learnt to love a wonderful soul, a soul that deserves something better than what I can give him.
Love is a sweet illusion that is born from the moonlight...the warmness of the earth and the tears of the clouds...It's a wild wind breeze, a laughter of leaves. A song played on and on...a certain path...that carries you into the deepest dreams. Each thought of mine for you...is arriving to it's destination and it'll leave behind a sun that will set down...And maybe you'll forget me, because the dream was evanescent...but all that I've said it's true and I've been loving you ceaselessly. Love is a multitude of qualities and defects embalmed in a body with irresistible shadows. Love can be EVERYTHING or NOTHING...The choice, my love, it is all yours!"
Thanks to all that have been kind and patient enough to read all of it... I am waiting for reviews, for your comments..